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Posted by CeeSea on May 24, 2004, at 0:51:46
I'm not sure what the ettiquite here is but i guess i should introduce myself. I am from australia, had depression all my life but the first major episode was triggered (and prompted my diagnosis) 4 years ago. i've tried a lot of meds, had ect a few times, been in and out of psych hospitals a bit. finally found a good psych and i keep in touch with my psychologist from where i used to live. they are pretty much at their wits end though, not much left to do with me. oh the psych is all very encouraging but he doesn't do anything when i feel really bad, just sort of hopes i will get through it i think? tells me there are new meds coming out all the time and TMS will be here soon, but really i know those things aren't going to fix me, just make me less suicidal. so i'm pretty much out of hope.
geez what a cheery little biography. i'm female, 22, engaged, have 2 cats and live in a rented flat.
hope to meet some of you soon
CC
Posted by partlycloudy on May 24, 2004, at 11:50:22
In reply to guess i should introduce myself?, posted by CeeSea on May 24, 2004, at 0:51:46
Welcome to Babble, CeeSea! I'm sure you'll find lots of support here. There are so many meds and combinations out there to try - we are a bunch of guinea pigs around here.
What are you taking currently - and do you see a therapist for the "talking cure"?
partlycloudy
p.s. funny, you don't sound Australian.
Posted by CeeSea on May 24, 2004, at 21:05:55
In reply to Re: guess i should introduce myself? » CeeSea, posted by partlycloudy on May 24, 2004, at 11:50:22
thanks for your welcome. Currently I am taking 8mg Edronax BD, Zyban BD (but for smoking not for depression) and 25mg Seroquel nochte. I've been on all the ssri's except aropax and cipramil, one TCA (mianserin) and the new, odd ones (serzone etc, all the ones with weird classes/no class). The seroquel is to replace Largactil which I was on prn but I'm worried about it's long term side effects.
My psychiatrist sees me twice a week for 45mins and does "talk therapy" as well as manage my meds. I do see a psychologist as well, but only once a month. She used to treat me but then we moved to a different town, so I see her occasionally to help give a different perspective on everything (she and the psych are in contact).
i know the guinea pig feeling well - i guess cos i've tried all the older drugs psych keeps telling me about new ones, or new uses for older ones (eg. he reckons they are testing Solian as a treatment for depression now) and i've been on a few as they came out, before they hit the pbs (he gives me sample packs).
feel like i am talking about myself rather a lot here!
how exactly does one not sound australian in an internet post lol? I lived overseas for a while so i may not use so much slang, possibly.
thanks again
CC
Posted by partlycloudy on May 25, 2004, at 8:19:49
In reply to Re: guess i should introduce myself?, posted by CeeSea on May 24, 2004, at 21:05:55
CeeSea, talking about yourself is what it's all about. You said you felt that there was no hope, having tried so many different medications. Please persevere (I am pretty hopeless at spelling, that word does not look right!). I have found that journaling helps me, but to be honest, I find that just being able to communicate with others like us on this site has been the most effective treatment yet for me.
Do I sound Canadian?
Posted by CeeSea on May 25, 2004, at 8:59:32
In reply to Re: guess i should introduce myself? » CeeSea, posted by partlycloudy on May 25, 2004, at 8:19:49
partlycloudy
i have a friend here who is half canadian, but no i guess you don't sound it! either does she to be honest.
The med I am on now helps, it really does, but it can never fix me. I have never been happy, among my diagnosies (I collect them like other people collect stamps!) is chronic dysthymia, which ends up as double depression (dysthymia plus major depressive episodes), so i have been at least mildly depressed my whole life. the one time i was close to happy i still had a really bad eating disorder. I don't really know why or how, other than that some of my family on both sides is nuts (ie locked up certifiable), and my father was pretty abusive (mostly emotionally) for about 15yrs. but my sister functions so i am not sure why i can't. i don't want to return to my old life, overachiever who looks happy and gets things done but hides a multitude of problems and feelings...but i also can't stay like this, totally useless, barely able to cope with a simple part time retail job and frequently a basket case. did I mention this is the 4th yr of this?
sorry, i sense that i am ranting. i keep a diary on my computer, and a record of letters to my penpal (who I am pretty open and honest with). writing it down does help.
my family are getting tired of this, i sense it. my father still pays for the psychologist, amazing as that is, mum is really supportive but i really regret the pain and worry i cause her. my fiance is starting to just not respond when i say i feel crap, or that i am worried about my actions, because he is so used to it. i have survived so far, i guess he figures i will keep surviving. i'm just so tired of it all.
sorry sorry sorry
whinging again
CC
Posted by partlycloudy on May 25, 2004, at 12:39:36
In reply to Re: guess i should introduce myself?, posted by CeeSea on May 25, 2004, at 8:59:32
CC, it sounds like you have reached a plateau with your medications. If you post on the main Psycho Babble board, you'll find plenty of ideas and suggestions. You'll probably find someone with the same dx as you.
Sorry if this isn't much help, but it is a direction at least :)
Posted by karen_kay on May 28, 2004, at 18:40:59
In reply to guess i should introduce myself?, posted by CeeSea on May 24, 2004, at 0:51:46
i'm kk. welcome to babble. i hope you find it as helpful as i have. there are a lot of amazing people here who understand what you are going through and are very supportive. please feel free to venture around and jump in when you have something to say or add to a thread. i'm sure others would love to hear from you as well, and many posters can't post here on this board.
i'm sorry about your situation right now dear. but please don't give up hope that you will find something to help you one day. i know it's very hard to believe right now, when you are depressed, but there are medical advances taking place everyday. please hold onto that hope dear. and try to take pleasure in the little things in life, like your cats, your fiance, the weather, rainbows, ice cream, friends, comedies on television, fresh fruit, sun rises, sun sets, coffee... anything you can to get through the day dear.
(((cc)))) btw, have you ever seen a kangaroo? and please talk to your therapist when you are feeling really bad dear. it does help with those distorted thoughts one has when depressed. take care dear.
Posted by Caper on June 1, 2004, at 21:17:54
In reply to guess i should introduce myself?, posted by CeeSea on May 24, 2004, at 0:51:46
> I'm not sure what the ettiquite here is but i guess i should introduce myself. I am from australia, had depression all my life but the first major episode was triggered (and prompted my diagnosis) 4 years ago. i've tried a lot of meds, had ect a few times, been in and out of psych hospitals a bit. finally found a good psych and i keep in touch with my psychologist from where i used to live. they are pretty much at their wits end though, not much left to do with me. oh the psych is all very encouraging but he doesn't do anything when i feel really bad, just sort of hopes i will get through it i think? tells me there are new meds coming out all the time and TMS will be here soon, but really i know those things aren't going to fix me, just make me less suicidal. so i'm pretty much out of hope.
> geez what a cheery little biography. i'm female, 22, engaged, have 2 cats and live in a rented flat.
> hope to meet some of you soon
> CC
>Hi,
I'm Caper and I'm new here too, relatively. (I've been posting for less than a month.) Just wanted to say welcome. Everyone here is really nice, and even in my lowest moments checking posts of others or writing my own can help. You can say ANYTHING here (with the exception of swear words, which will earn a reprimand from Dr.Bob himself!).
Knowing I can be as honest about my problems and slip-ups and relapses and hospitalization is very comforting.
I'll introduce myself too I think. I'm 31, on medical leave from a graduate degree program (law), I have one son, and my leave from school was a result of depression and anxiety (severe) and I was dumb enough to use alcohol and not realize that yes, addiction can happen to me too. So now I've been an alcoholic for a little over a year. But enough about me.
Don't forget to try the Babble board regarding medications. Almost any med question will get a response regarding a personal experience with it. Keep posting and reading, it really does help!
By the way, what is TMS? (I'm an American, as I'm sure you could probably already tell *smile*)
Take care,
Caper
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