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Posted by ROO on October 28, 2002, at 11:02:31
If I may have to add a damn antidepressant to
the old mood stabilizer....I'm stable...not suicidal...
but I often think dark thoughts and life seems depleted a
and bleak....I lack joy....I don't know what to think...I hate
the side effects....but I don't like these feelings either....
what do you think....tell me what to do...how to live my life...
(just kidding)....there's this feeling I get when I know I'm clinically
depressed...it's this feeling that we're all just these amoeba's (spelling?)...
really existential...just these bags of blood and tissue and nerves and cells moving
through life....and that's how I kind of feel lately....I know that when I take
an antidepressant and the ole seratonin gets pumping those feelings go away and I
feel peace and some joy again...but then there's the price....
I feel really torn....
Part of it is circumstantial....I'm really at a job that is completely unhealthy for me....
mind deadening and isolating...then I come home and i'm alone....my life is really isolating....
so that contributes ALOT...my psychiatrist says to do things that NURTURE me, that feed me, etc...but
I don't have the energy...I mean I hardly have the energy sometimes to even put a cd in the stereo!! That's
bad! That seems really depressed to me....Any insight?
Thanks for listening...
I'm glad not to be in the suicidal pits of hell...but this isn't exactly what I had in mind either...
Posted by Dinah on October 28, 2002, at 16:04:14
In reply to Dinah...I'm wondering.., posted by ROO on October 28, 2002, at 11:02:31
No insight, but plenty of understanding. I too am in a job that is probably just plain bad for me.
You are in a different position than I am in that antidepressants actually make you less depressed. They never did that for me. Luvox (the best of the bunch) made me feel a lot less overstimulated, but it also made me feel flat and emotionless. Part of the reason I went off it is so that I could feel good emotions again. So I augment my mood stabilizer with therapy, rather than antidepressants.
So I am in no real position to advise you at all. It's a difficult decision, with lots of tradeoffs on each side. It all comes down to whether you would rather live with the side effects of medication or the side effects of choosing to live without medication.
Good luck.
Dinah
Posted by jay on October 28, 2002, at 16:36:53
In reply to Dinah...I'm wondering.., posted by ROO on October 28, 2002, at 11:02:31
Posted by ROO on October 28, 2002, at 16:40:05
In reply to Re: Dinah...I'm wondering.. » ROO, posted by Dinah on October 28, 2002, at 16:04:14
Oh well...thanks anyway....maybe I'll try the meds
board. I think I remember feeling less depressed on them...
but I remember feeling flat on them too...God, I can't remember...it's
just been too long since I've felt half way normal to judge...I don't feel
in any position to judge anything...I feel incredibly self doubtful about my
ability to judge my own emotions. I guess I could always just try it and quit if
it doesn't seem right. Ad's used to help me a lot. I can't even think straight right
now. Maybe it's the damn stupidmax.
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